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- December 5th, 2013
I've started to feel a bit better since yesterday. There was a lot of stuff to do yesterday, I had two lectures and went to this local arts and crafts class, so I came back home feeling rather well. Today I actually feel like I can finally go and practice piano, and also finish the piece for my composition exam. I'm glad that, finally, there are ideas in my head and I want to do something. Because the past week even getting out of bed was real hard.
Also, I thought that it would be nice to write another piece and perform it on my winter exams. My instrument teacher really wants me to perform something of my own, but I've only got this one piece I did for the composition exam, and I just don't think it's good enough...
I'm kind of jealous of this outlook. I've been working on my point of view lately, but it just doesn't come to me naturally. The depression doesn't make it any easier, either. And my teacher is so confident, he doesn't give two shits about what people will say about him. He says "it doesn't matter if people get it or like it - it's your piece, it's your concept". It's true, though - I care too much about being "good enough" for others, and I end up screwing up because of it.
Also, this morning I saw my psychiatrist on TV. Just a random thing I wanted to say.
The clock is ticking, and time is running out. Exams came really fast this year.